I’ve fallen madly in love with a man who served 26.5 years in prison for a murder (gang related) he committed when he was 19. The ironic thing is I was dating him when this happened. He pursued me for years before I would take him serious. He was trying to quit the gang life for himself and me.
I wrote him for a year and moved on with my life. Decades later he paroled and found me. He said he never stopped looking for me and always thought of how things could have played out so differently if he wasn’t such a fool as a kid. When we are together it’s like we are teenagers again. I’m lonely in my marriage of 18 yrs, but I have financial security & stability (premium medical insurance – retirement) with my husband. Although we have only been intimate maybe 3x in the last 5 years. I sleep in a separate room – It’s my choice as I’ve lost attraction for my husband since he began chain smoking and drinking excessively. Plus, we don’t really have much in common. I’ve stayed in this marriage for my child. And also because I didn’t want to break my husband’s heart.
Although often times he’s very depressing for me. When my past found me, I was truly happy to hear from him but I never in a million years expected to fall for him & feel the spiritual, mental, and physical connection that has evolved in the past year. We spend so much time talking about everything. Initially I thought – hell no – I would never get involved with a felon. But he amazes me with his resolve to make up for lost time and work hard to make something out of his life. He makes me feel alive and inspires me in ways no one else has ever done. We have so much in common. We have so much fun together and he’s constantly reminding me of the small yet more important things in life. He’s nothing what I expected. I feel guilty for having this affair. What should I do??…. please, any feedback would be appreciated. Thank you in advance.