I’m 16. I’m a lesbian. And I’m in love with one girl from my school. But she’s not in love with me.
We were friends a couple weeks ago. And then I fucked up. I did stupid things and I can’t fix it. I suppose she now hates me. We don’t talk anymore. I miss her so much and I hate myself for losing the girl I love, even as a friend.
Now I see two ways for me. The first one is where I can try to apologize again (I tried but it didn’t work,) or try to do something to get our friendship back. I don’t know if it is possible, but I can try one more time, because I really love her and being only a friend for her killed me, but it was amazing to talk to her every day. And the other way is where I just accept all the pain and give up on her and make myself to forget her. I don’t know what is right. I want her back so much, but maybe it’ll be better for everyone if I give up on her.
I’m tired of wasting my time, my thoughts, my nerves, my tears on her. Maybe I should get over her? It’ll be painful and awful and I’ll probably die, but one day I’ll wake up and not be thinking about her.
So, what should I do?