So to keep it short, since about April I have been involved with a married man. He is 37, and I am 25. I too, am involved in a long term relationship so I guess we both could relate on some of the issues that we have been dealing with in the both of our relationships, which in turn sort of started the whole affair.
We both agreed to trying our best at not developing feelings, which was totally cool at first. But lately I’ve been having strong feelings. I feel a lot of guilt on so many levels, and I feel so worthless ever since we started sleeping together. Each time we have sex and he leaves, I can’t help but due to the shame that I feel. It’s like he takes a piece of me each and every single time he leaves after we are done.
I really want to break this off, especially knowing that our relationship will never be anything more than what it is. But sadly I have fallen for him. I have nobody to vent to, and it’s eating me up inside. I’m just curious as to how do I let this guy go? How do I emotionally and spiritually pick myself back up again? How do I get my self worth back again? He took it all from me.