I am a female high school senior, and I’ve had a crush on my female teacher since tenth grade (I’m not out to many people yet). She’s single and 17 years older than me. I’ve been trying to get rid of this crush for years, but it won’t budge, even after I stopped taking her class. She’s just so ideal to me: smart, funny, interesting, and pretty … I really fell hard for her and it sucks. I am pretty sure she suspects I like her, but she ignores it (like she should). We have a pretty good professional relationship, and sometimes we talk about our outside lives.
I’ve been mentally debating a lot about whether or not I should just tell her how I feel on the last day. I don’t want her to return my feelings, but rather I think it will give me the closure to get over it and move on in college.However, I am concerned about:
- A third party overhearing and misinterpreting the situation, putting her reputation, job, and career in danger.
- I am not sure how she will react to me actually confirming it out loud. I know she won’t be like, “ew, gay,” but i still don’t want to cause her any emotional strains for my benefit.
- I don’t want to make things awkward between us if I ever run into her again (we live in a small town).
- But then again, I really do like her, and I want to get it off my chest once and for all.
What would you do? If you think I should tell her, how should I do so?