I really have come to a point where I’m sure I’m either transgender or non-binary. I know I will never come out, or transition because my parents and sister always talk about how disgusting they are.
It would be easy if they were a terrible family, but they are loving to me. They always tell me they love me, and I really love them with all my heart as well. I don’t want them to ever look at me differently. It’s really depressing to know that I can never tell them. I don’t know if I should risk everything and let them know – or just keep it under wraps…
Sometimes people will frown upon things that they do not understand. That might be their ‘disgust’. You say that they love you and they might surprise you with their reactions. Of course there will be a few hurdles along the way when you tell them. But love should be unconditional. It might take time. It’s not worth it to hide who you are for the fear of being judged.
First and foremost, you are not alone! I don’t know where you live, but most urban areas have community centers for LGBT youth. It’s a good place to find support and commonality in a world where you may feel pretty lonely. Most also provide individual therapy and family support groups.
Here are a few resources where you can find more information:
http://www.lgbtcenters.org/
http://www.transyouthequality.org/
http://www.transequality.org/
Best,
Karen Kerschmann, LCSW