My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost two years. We are seniors in high school, and he’s been my best friend ever since we started talking sophomore year. Ever since we started dating, we’ve been inseparable. Some slight ups and downs, nothing too major. He’s close with my family, I’m close with his. We have many mutual friends, and we are truly great together.
For some reason, things have been off the past couple months. We fight a lot more than usual. But the thing is, I’m the one who starts the fights usually. I’m super sensitive, and it takes little to tick me off. My boyfriend is the sweetest, most innocent kid ever, but he annoys me very easily. I don’t know why. Sometimes I think I am a lot more mature and more intelligent than him. Other times I think I miss the way I used to be. I used to be a lot closer with my friends, and more carefree.
Thinking about going off to college soon terrifies me, only because I don’t know what to do. Anytime I hint a breakup, he gets so upset and I feel so awful, because there’s no specific reason for a breakup. I’ve just become sad recently, and I think I’d be happier without a relationship on my hands. But another part of me thinks I will be absolutely miserable and regret it. What if I never find a guy like him again? He’s perfect but I just don’t know where to turn. I feel like I’ve lost myself and we’ve lost our spark. Help.
LemonVibe 
You are at a point in your life where you are ready to break free and really experience things. It’s just time to let go and move on. Break ups are hard, but harder the longer you wait.
Sounds like you have a hard decision to make- first loves are a huge deal, and often frame what we look for in the future. I do know people who have even married their high school boy/girlfriends, something that every person says is ‘I’m glad we broke up for a while so I could experience dating’ or ‘I wish I knew what it’s like to have dated other people’.
What your feeling is totally normal- you have a lot of transitions coming up and I’d imagine it’s scary to think of losing your boyfriend as well. You are right that you will never find anyone like him again- but that goes with all the guys you can meet in the future as well. Good luck!