My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost two years. We are seniors in high school, and he’s been my best friend ever since we started talking sophomore year. Ever since we started dating, we’ve been inseparable. Some slight ups and downs, nothing too major. He’s close with my family, I’m close with his. We have many mutual friends, and we are truly great together.
For some reason, things have been off the past couple months. We fight a lot more than usual. But the thing is, I’m the one who starts the fights usually. I’m super sensitive, and it takes little to tick me off. My boyfriend is the sweetest, most innocent kid ever, but he annoys me very easily. I don’t know why. Sometimes I think I am a lot more mature and more intelligent than him. Other times I think I miss the way I used to be. I used to be a lot closer with my friends, and more carefree.
Thinking about going off to college soon terrifies me, only because I don’t know what to do. Anytime I hint a breakup, he gets so upset and I feel so awful, because there’s no specific reason for a breakup. I’ve just become sad recently, and I think I’d be happier without a relationship on my hands. But another part of me thinks I will be absolutely miserable and regret it. What if I never find a guy like him again? He’s perfect but I just don’t know where to turn. I feel like I’ve lost myself and we’ve lost our spark. Help.