Ii never had a healthy relationship — not with my parents, who were so toxic to be around, nor with guys. To be honest, many guys are attracted to me, but they wouldn’t if they knew the real me. I deal with depression — like every year, I spend at least 5 months not moving from my room, just crying and with no interest in life.
Plus I always put vodka in everything. It gives me a little interest in life, and I’m NEVER interested in guys who like me. I only like people who are indifferent to me . What’s wrong with me ?