“I love the person she used to be, but I’m not sure she exists anymore”

I met a girl when I was 14 years old, and I’m gonna sound like a dumb kid, but I was pretty certain that I was gonna spend the rest of my life with her. That was not the case. We broke up after about two-and-a-half years, and it didn’t end well.

I ended up moving states to create a bit of distance. We’ve been on again, off again for almost three years since we broke up, only seeing each other maybe twice in that time. We’ve left partners for each other, and for some delusional reason, think we are both meant to be together, even though the odds are stacked against us.

I love her, well at least the person she used to be when I met her, but now I’m not so sure that person even exists, and I’m caught in this trap where the bar is set so high, that nobody really compares (believe me, I’ve tried). However, I feel that I can’t go back to her because of the things we both did to each other even despite how much I love the idea of her.

Any and all advice welcome. Thank you for your time.

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One thought on ““I love the person she used to be, but I’m not sure she exists anymore”

  1. Anonymous says:

    You love a ideal in your head. No one is that person you’ve put up on a pedestal. However, I would attempt this relationship again. It might work out, but you’ll always question and have the what if… if you don’t.

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