To understand the seriousness of my question, I must tell you the short bit of what’s going on …
A girl I was with before got pregnant, but I only found out after three months of not talking to her. She is now in her 3rd trimester. After hearing the news, I started working towards a better life for my child. We ended up back together, because I figured I had few other options at the time, and finding out that news was so random.
I tagged along with a family member to go to Alaska. I had discussed this with her, and we had it planned so that I would get set up there first, and then she would come along as well, so that we could give the family thing a shot and stay together.
After being out there for a short time, she suddenly started having these doubts about it all, and I noticed a change in attitude when we would talk on the phone, which I found strange. I later found out it was because her family was always trash-talking me and filling her head with all of these what-if situations.
With that being said, I had to think of another way for us to be together and for me to be in my daughter’s life. So I moved in with her and her family. Biggest mistake. After being here for a few months, I ended up sending all the money I had on her car and things for the baby. I started working for a bit, but was fired because of a coworker’s personal issue with me.
Now I can’t find a job, have no money, and have no family around here to help me (or anyone who is willing to). Her family has started talking bad about me and always persuades her to go against me on everything. I feel uncomfortable living here because I’m unsure how much longer I’ll be here before they convince her to kick me out.
She has started treating me really badly, and a couple of days ago, she confessed to cheating on me while I was away in Alaska. The big thing about that is she blames me for her cheating, saying I wasn’t around even though she knows I couldn’t be even if I wanted to.
I have given this woman the little (but all) I had to offer, but I guess it wasn’t enough. So I guess my question now is, what do I do? Or where do I go from here? I’m really unhappy and just hate my life. I am barely able to drag myself out of bed, because in my mind, I have nothing left and nothing to keep me going.