For the last few weeks or so, Iíve been talking to this girl I was introduced to through a mutual friend of mine. We both kind of hit it off immeadiately as well because in a lot of ways both of us were so similar. We both had the same sexual priorities, we both wanted to move and go to to college in the same state after we graduate, weíre both sophomores in high school, and in a lot of ways weíre both able to support and encourage each other to do things and succeed in ways no one else can do for us.
But what I didnít know after she flirted with me and led me on was that she had a boyfriend. Normally right then and there I wouldíve just dropped her but the connection I felt with her was so indescribably vivid and real that I didnít want to just drop her because I would probably never find someone else like her in a 1000 years.
Plus it didnít seem like she was just flirting with me to lead me on to nowhere for her own amusement. She just didnít seem like that kind of person. If she was she wouldíve gotten sick of my constant emotional issues and always trying to make me happy because Iím usually pretty pessimistic. So I continued to talk with her every day as much as I could. On the last day I spoke with her, I asked her why she flirted with me even though she had a boyfriend. She said, ĎTo be honest with you, our relationship isnít that stable.í
I asked her how so, but she didnít want to talk about it so I respecte that ofc. Then a couple hours later after she suddenly stopped responding to me and then came back, I asked her where she had went. She said she had just got off the phone with her boyfriend. And when I asked how it went, she said she didnít want to talk, so I just gave her some space.
A couple days later she deactivated her account on the messaging platform we used to talk to each other, and I havenít seen her since. It will have been a week since Iíve seen her tomorrow cause this happened last Sunday (1/17/16) but she deleted her account on Tuesday (1/19/16).
Anyway, after she had deactivated, naturally, I was heartbroken and upset. I thought she understood me, I thought she understood and cared more about how emotionally sensitive I am than the average person is more than anyone I had ever met, so when she left, you can imagine how much pain it wrought on me.
I went to the same mutual who introduced us to each other for advice. She said I shouldnít worry about her not coming back because sheís apparently deactivated before but always comes back so when she told me that I wasnít really angry anymore, but I was definitely still hurt.
So yeah, in short Iíve just been spending the last few days since sheís left (including today) crying over her being gone and worrying about not seeing her again. I know it would take time, but like, the problem is that I canít stop thinking about her. The feelings I have for her are real and more intense then they have been for anyone else. Usually with people in general my feelings are always intense but in this case its more than usual.
But I know I need to get her off my mind until she comes back, so this brings me to my question described: how do I let go of her? How do I get her off my mind until she comes back when all I can think about is her and how much I want to talk to her again?