“I feel lonely”

I feel lonely. I have plenty of friends from high school who I keep in touch with using discord, and I’ve got a few acquaintances in college. When I say that I feel lonely, I mean romantically and sexually. I’ve tried plenty of ways to maybe ease myself into a relationship. I’ve tried self reflection to appease the requirement of loving myself in order to be capable of loving others. I’ve tried putting myself into a mindset of being indifferent so that I don’t come off as creepy while it becomes easier for me to tease and be playful.

I’m also fairly handsome (I can pull off a clean look and a rugged/scruffy look), not to brag or anything it’s just that I get that a lot, but I don’t get many advances (not that I’m really expecting so much as hoping). I want to find myself in a relationship, but I don’t have much time to even devote to one so I’m also fearful of seeking it out. I don’t want to get into a relationship and then not have the time to give to keep it going.

But I really want someone special in my life; I’m tired of sleeping alone, I’m tired of not having someone to look to for emotional support or offer it to, and I’m tired of not having someone to be with when I’ve got time off and none of my friends are in town. I have a cuddling fixation and I’m very touch-oriented, so that’s part of the reason why I’m tired of sleeping alone. I don’t know what to do. I know what I want, but I also know what I don’t want. I don’t want to go through life not knowing the literal and figurative warmth of another human. I’m a heterosexual male if that’s important.

2 thoughts on ““I feel lonely”

  1. Anonymous says:

    Believe me, you are not alone. I am a female in a very similar situation. I have recently moved to a new city (NYC) and am slowly making friends, but I know that I am ready to finally start dating. I went through college heavily concentrating on my major and never got into a serious relationship. Because of this, I feel that I am inexperienced in the dating game and it scares me to think that people will be freaked out and judge me by my lack of experience.
    I’m not going to lie, I am attractive as well. I even have represented by a modeling agency. I’m not bragging as well, I just also don’t get approached a lot. People have told me I’m intimidating to men. Maybe that’s the case with you as well? I know that when I see an attractive guy, it takes a lot to even think about talking to him. Most girls just expect guys to make the first move. Unfortunate, but true.
    I am now getting the courage to try dating apps. One that I want to activate in the spring when my schedule clears up is Hinge. Tinder just seems like a hook-up app and I’m not down for that. If you are looking for more of a relationship, Hinge seems like the best choice, from my research lol:)
    I guess what I’m saying is, just know you are not the only one that is feeling this way. I was literally going to write word for word what you wrote and I’m really grateful to have come across your post. I know you will find what you are looking for. Otherwise, what the hell am I going to do?!

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