I feel lonely. I have plenty of friends from high school who I keep in touch with using discord, and I’ve got a few acquaintances in college. When I say that I feel lonely, I mean romantically and sexually. I’ve tried plenty of ways to maybe ease myself into a relationship. I’ve tried self reflection to appease the requirement of loving myself in order to be capable of loving others. I’ve tried putting myself into a mindset of being indifferent so that I don’t come off as creepy while it becomes easier for me to tease and be playful.
I’m also fairly handsome (I can pull off a clean look and a rugged/scruffy look), not to brag or anything it’s just that I get that a lot, but I don’t get many advances (not that I’m really expecting so much as hoping). I want to find myself in a relationship, but I don’t have much time to even devote to one so I’m also fearful of seeking it out. I don’t want to get into a relationship and then not have the time to give to keep it going.