“I did something really stupid”

I did something really stupid that I probably shouldn’t have done, and now a friend of mine is extremely angry with me. But first, I should probably explain what led me up to this situation.

I met this boy on Instagram back in August or so. We’ll call him G. G lives in England. We started talking more, and by January, there were plans for him to move over here and live with me. Well, he started talking to his other friends about this plan, and he created a group chat with the friends who were willing to come to America with him. The group consisted of G, his girlfriend, some guy we’ll call J, and K. K was a lovely guy. He was sweet, caring, and very cute. We started PMing each other, one thing led to another, and we were in a relationship. A long distance relationship. With distance came desire. We wanted to see each other, and more of each other (if you know what I mean). It was amazing until April. He said he wanted a break, and I didn’t take it lightly. I basically had a breakdown. Which, in hindsight, was a stupid decision. We got back together, and things were great again until mid-May. He told me that he felt like he could no longer handle the distance, and that he needed something physical, and he broke up with me. That destroyed me. For the next month or so, my life was filled with self-harm and and pills. I was just so wildly depressed, I couldn’t cope at all. We were still talking, as we wanted to still be friends (I read that that never actually works out, and it’s true), and he told me that there was already another girl in his life. Although I was happy for him, I was astonished, and actually kinda disappointed that he had moved on so fast.

Now, here comes the part that I regret immensely. Remember when I told you about us…wanting to see more of each other? If you didn’t know what I meant by that, it meant that we had sent nudes. Lots of them. I still had a few pictures of his pecker, and I told G about it. G laughed and asked if he could see them. My god, I still have no fucking idea as to why I did this, but I sent a few of them to him. He didn’t screenshot or anything, he just looked at them.

And that brings me to today. I guess K got to see G and I’s chat, and saw that I had sent them. He got extremely angry, and is now spamming me with messages about hating me, and how he wishes that he would’ve killed himself instead of getting into a relationship with me. I’m so fucking scared, I just don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to say. This is all so fucking bad, and it’s all my fault. I legitimately want to fucking die now.

One thought on ““I did something really stupid”

  1. Anonymous says:

    Ask your friend to delete them then block your ex. What you did was illegal and in some states you could go to jail for revenge porn. You also definitely need professional therapy. Those are powerful emotions and you are self harming. By continuing to try to be friends with this ex you are only prolonging pain. You definitely need distance from him.

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