I am struggling with no friends right now. Last year I was talking to this boy and he ended up hurting me really bad. In ways I don’t want to even discuss. For one, he had a girlfriend the whole time.

Skip to a year later which is now. One of my closest friends is dating him. When she told me I was devastated. Not that I cared about the boy, that one of my best friends can look him in the eye knowing that I talked to him, knowing how much he hurt me! I got mad at her and told her how mad I was at her and blocked her. Afterwards, all my other 3 close friends tell me that I’m wrong for getting mad, I should get over it, it’s not that serious, she isn’t doing anything wrong. One of those 3 even justified her opinion by saying that me and the boy only talked for a week. As if he hasn’t tortured me emotionally, physically (throwing a football at me purposely in our school yard) and verbally (calling me ugly and too dark skinned) the rest of the year. So now I don’t want anything to do with any of my so-called friends.

Now sitting at lunch by myself, I see all of them including the one I was closest to, having a blast with the girl that betrayed me! I couldn’t believe it. I don’t know what to do. I kinda miss them and hate being lonely with no one to talk to but I also DO NOT want to be their friends again the way they’ve all betrayed me.