I’ve been married for almost 3 years now. In the 5 years we have been together, I’ve NEVER once had eyes for anyone else, I’ve just been madly in love and loyal to him.
Until I met his co-worker 3 weeks ago. My husband invited him and his girlfriend over to play pool and have some drinks, and we were all having such a good time getting to know each other. A couple drinks turned into several, then we all found ourselves in a very, very odd predicament…..We were in our bedroom, having a foursome sex party. Now, before you think it was a typical foursome, it really wasn’t. I only had sex with my husband, but we all performed oral on each other. We have never engaged in activity like that before, it was a very new thing in our relationship.
I woke up the next morning feeling very strange, aside from my hangover. I had no regrets, in fact, I woke up and stared at the sleeping bodies in my bed and felt giddy on the inside, a new excitement. I’ve only seen my husband’s co-worker 3 more times since that night, about a month ago, and each time I see him my whole body gets hot, jittery and tingly. I crave him, and not just sexually…I feel way too happy to see him, smell him, hear his voice. But I feel it’s not one sided. The way he looks at me is intense, I have to look away frequently because isn’t it obvious to anyone else? But I look around and no one bats an eye. Is it in my head?
Since I’ve never felt this way about anyone before, and since it was just out of nowhere I started feeling this way, I’ve been pondering the weirdest thoughts: Did he like sell his soul to the devil to make people love him so easily? Love spell maybe? Why am I so seriously obsessed with this man??
I feel like a very bad wife for having these intense feelings, but I can’t shake it. What’s wrong with me?