I met this girl online 4 years ago, when I was 16 and she was 14. I fell in love with her, we talked every day, but never saw each other. She lives in Idaho, I live in Oregon. Back then, we couldn’t see each other cause of the distance, and there was no way our parents would take us to see each other. It was definitely a romantic relationship, she was perfect personality wise, and so beautiful.
After 2 years, we had a falling out, I feel because we literally never saw each other. I didn’t have a job, could barely drive to the store, and tried keeping everything a secret from everybody. She’s legit and real, there’s 100% no chance of her being not who she says she is, we’ve Facetimed, Snapchatted thousands of times, talked/seen many friends + their social medias and everything- she’s real. I still love her, I still care about her, I still think about her not every day, but definitely a lot. We’ve talked on and off ever since, but I haven’t heard from her in at least a
Now, I’m currently in a relationship that’s lasted 3 years. She’s perfect, I couldn’t ask for anything better. I am very happy and very in love with her. She does everything right, and I honestly think she may be the one I marry.
Last night, the girl that lives in Washington sent me a Snapchat at 4am of her smoking a blunt, crying, and saying that she misses me and wants to see me.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel sick to my stomach because I literally cannot get this girl out of my head. But at the same time, I swear I am madly in love with my current girlfriend. What makes it worse is that the two are very similar, both in looks and personality, but obviously are unique in their own ways. But, I want to meet this girl, I have to. I feel like I literally will never get over her unless I meet her. I believe that I have made her out to be so perfect in my head, that seeing her will make me realize that she isn’t the most perfect human in the world. But at the same time, what if I meet her and everything gets worse?
Any thoughts on the situation?