So, I have a friend whom I’ve known for twelve years. We only just got back in contact within the last two years. He helped me start my career — got me reconnected to what I wanted to do. He has listened to me cry, and talk about my fears and concerns.
We have slept together three times. He said to me, “I don’t want to be offensive, but, I see our friendship, and my attraction to you as separate.” I think I am starting to have strong feelings for him, but I think he has said where he stands from that. He has also said “we would destroy each other” when I said I wish we got together when he had feelings for me, and I turned him down (12 years ago).
I am now married — to an amazing man, and I have turned into a 15-year-old. I don’t know how to move on.