I have a friend that I have known since I was 4, and I am now 22. I stated liking him back in grade 6 ( when I was 11), started really liking him in high school, but never did anything because he was my brother’s good friend.

Well, coming home from school this January, I started talking to him again, and I fell even harder than I ever thought I would. He told be I was his first crush and that he has always liked me “like that.” Recently, we had a downfall with a lie that was started though his ex and mine. It tore us apart. He said he needed time, and I respected that. During this time, it seemed as though he lost all interest in ever being with me.

Meanwhile, his best friend went through a break-up, and I was there to talk with him and help him through it. And that’s when his best friend fell for me. I realized then I was kinda interested in him as well. Now that I have been hanging out with his best friend, the guy I’m so head-over-heels for told me to go for his friend.

What! I was in shock. Then he continued to tell me “I have always liked you and I always will.” What does that even mean? Like, I was so confused. You tell me to go for the guy, and then you say that! Needless to say, I still hang out with his best friend, and now that he is returning home from school, my heart is torn in two!

I can’t talk to his friend without hearing his name and wanting to cry, thinking of all that could have happened if I had just kept waiting. I waited almost 11 years for this chance. Why didn’t I wait longer? Then I thought to myself, the only reason I like his best friend … is because he is just like him.

What do I do????