So, my father was abusive growing up. I have been able to forgive him for this. We have a better relationship than we once did. He cheats on my mother. I caught him a few years back with one woman. I told my sister’s about what I had found out. They were initially appalled. Then they talked to him. I was told it was “not as bad as I thought” that mom knew abd it would never happen again. I was told not to bring it up with mom. I got the message loud and clear. My mother is not dumb. She has caught him in lies in front of me. At first she is angry and asks questions. Then she comes up with the excuses FOR HIM. My mother has always put hinge above all, including us. She didn’t protect us from him, we would be yelled at, for “making him angry enough”. I have forgiven then both, I love my mother with all my heart. She is the only person in the world I love as much as my children, not even my husband. He still cheats, with another woman. They was another in between. He is basically doing it right in front of everyone. I honestly think it is wreaking more havoc on my life, and my emotions than those involved. Even my own relationship with my husband. For this I can’t forgive him. He has her total love and devotion, and he doesn’t deserve it. But even if I were to tell my mother. I am sincerely concerned, no, scared to death, that she would call me a liar just to protect him and her ignorant bliss. I couldn’t stomach the thought of losing her. So what do I do? This consumes my thoughts on a regular basis. Like I think about it at least once a day. How do I move on and find my own happiness?