My girlfriend recently broke up with me after we were in the most ideal and wonderful relationship. We’re both seventeen, and maybe it was just us being young, but even people around us have commented that we seemed to have some sort of deeper connection, and the whole thing felt very soulmate-ish, if that makes sense.
The thing is, that we’re both girls, and things started to go downhill after my parents found out. They’re really conservative and religious, and I had to leave my house for a while. I was never really very close with my parents; they’re emotionally abusive and my mom is a narcissist. I could deal with my parents not approving, because really I don’t care what they think.
She is not like that, and she’s really close with her family. Her mom found out, and she was not happy. Ever since then, she’s been acting weird and one day she told me she was aromantic (I already knew she was asexual and that was okay, but she told me she felt romantically attracted to me and that she loved me). I asked her if all I was to her was a friend then, and she said “Not really, I mean, you were much more than that”.
I have a feeling she’s working through things right now and coming to terms with everything, but what do I do? I love her so much and I can see that she cares about me too. Every so often I’ll catch her looking at me in class or slipping up and saying things like “when we go there one day”, as though we’re still together. My heart feels like it’s so, so broken, and I don’t know if I should accept what she’s said and move on or wait for her to sort things out and maybe she might want to get back with me. There’s no one like her – no one with as much of the galaxy in their soul, and I’m so happy I at least had the time I did with her. She wrote songs for me and I drew flowers for her. She helped me edit my poems, and I taught her how to make paper airplanes. If I ever get with anyone else they either will be her or won’t be, and I don’t know which one is worse. Sorry this is so long, and thank you for reading if you did.