My head is spinning and I don’t know that what my mind wants, is actually what it wants. I also don’t know what is the right thing to do in my situation. Help.

About 8 months ago I moved away from Cali to New York leaving my girlfriend of 4 years and we started to do the distance. Our relationship started to go sour and my girlfriend started blaming me for the reason things were going bad because I was pursuing my dreams. She wanted to break-up multiple times but I guess I convinced her to stay with me and maybe it will get better. In the meantime I met this amazing friend who was a girl in one of my courses. We got to hang out extensively because we would always work together and became almost best friends. She also had a boyfriend in California and was doing the distance. It started to get weird however because I think I started to really like her. Anyway. Tons of time goes by, like 6 months, and I am struggling with my relationship. This other girl is also and she breaks up with her boyfriend and then a couple weeks after that I got in a fight with my girlfriend and we broke up.

It has been two weeks and last night I was over at her place like I usually do sometimes but we addressed what type of friends we were and what we are. We couldn’t answer the question because we always knew there was tension between us. We then said that we both had feelings for each other and started to make out passionately. Like really a lot. Now…. this is my question. Am I a terrible person? I don’t want another relationship right now, and I just got broken up. What should I do?