“He used to be the man of my dreams”

I’ve been in a relationship for 10 years. I am currently 26. When I was a teenager, he was the man of my dreams, but as we aged and matured, we’ve became roommates that hold each other down from actual love possibilities, for convenience of our children and living situation.

He feels differently, though. This weekend we had an argument about something stupid. And he left. I figured a hour or two to blow off steam. But when I woke at 5 am, he was nowhere to be found. Instant panic attack. I called , phone’s off …

He strolled in at 2 pm. After hours of mixed emotions and thoughts of where he could possibly be. He told me he was at the hospital. I’ve already basically premeditated his funeral, mentally prepared to be a single mom, and had a partial break down. Inside , the damage was done. He left. He didn’t call. He turned his phone off. I wrote him a proper notice to leave , and slept alone last night.

He thinks I am upset about one night. But it was icing for me. I’ve been upset for 5 years. I am very vocal and never leave him to guess why I am unhappy. He’s just never made the effort. I am unsure what I want … But I know there’s more to life than this.

2 thoughts on ““He used to be the man of my dreams”

  1. Anonymous says:

    Yep, like someone else I know, she wasn’t feeling her marriage for six years and decided it was done because she said if she was feeling this way for such a long time, no way was it going to get better in another six years. We all change when we get older and what you want now will of course be different from what you want in the future and that’s not a bad thing. Like the flight attendants say: put on your mask first.

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