I’ve been online dating someone for a year now.
That aside, in 2011 when I was 16, I’d started online dating my ex. In 2013, the day I turned 18, I dropped out of school and bought a bus ticket to where he lived. It was great at first, but declined quickly as soon as trouble arose. For whatever reason, I’d stuck around for a few years after and only moved out and back in with my dad June of this year. I did love my ex, and I was sad to leave, but there was so much bitterness nothing could be done.
Back to my current LDR, I do deeply love this boy. However, I cry a lot since leaving my ex’s place, and every time I talk to him (which isn’t often, but sometimes he lets me know, because we did have a life together).
I’ve been tempted, thinking if my current LDR fails, maybe me and my ex can try again. Everyone I know hates my ex, for good reason, but I still find myself missing him and seeing him as my best friend. He never lies to me like he used to when we dated, something that was already changing before I moved out, and he’s losing interest in flings (main issue was ‘cheating’, him getting in fake relationships with multiple girls at a time online while dating me just to get their nudes/company).
I’m wondering if it would be possible for it to work a year or two from now? Both of us messed up in the relationship, and both of us have changed through the years, and I believe after some more time things will have cooled down enough for us not to fall back into old habits.
And secondarily, if my current LDR doesn’t fail, I’d still like to keep my ex as a close friend. Is this a terrible idea?