My boyfriend and I have been together for almost a year. We have never had a fight, but there are some things I want to talk to him about. I feel like I can’t though — I don’t want to upset him. There are so many things that are bothering me and I don’t think I can hold them in anymore.
It first started a few months ago, when we were in a group of people, and I wasn’t really saying anything because I’m a shy person, and he just steps in front of me and cuts me out of the group. Another time, we were at a party with a bunch of his friends, and I didn’t really know anyone, but he would just leave me alone and go talk to a group of girls. He’d go up to his friends talking about how one of them looked like Anna Kendrick.
Another time, I asked him if he could pick me up from school, but he told me he was going out to lunch with “the guys” and I believed him. Later on he tells me that he actually went to coffee with a girl, Johnnie. She’s his friend, so I wouldn’t be too upset about it if he didn’t lie to me, but, the lying is what made me upset.
He also likes a lot of girls’ pictures. On the fourth of July, I asked him to go to fireworks with me and my family. I wanted to spend the fourth with him. But before we are about to get him, he tells me that he’s not coming anymore because he had to get up early in the morning. But later that night, I find out he actually went to his friends house! Now lately whenever he actually has work off for once, he goes to hang out with his friend instead of me, and I feel like every time we do hang out, he just wants to do it.
I feel like he just wants to say he has a girlfriend, and he wants everyone to think we are a perfect couple, but we’re not. I don’t know how to tell him how I’m feeling. I can’t tell if he actually loves me or not.