I’m never enough

I have a book full of issues but what it comes down to is that i’m never enough. Not for my bio or step father. Not for the men i’ve loved and currently love. I am in a poly relationship with two men who regularly profess their love for me and that they don’t want to lose me but they shut me out. Emotionally, sexually. It hurts and pissed me off to the point of tears but I don’t know what to do. They both have other stresses in their lives, but does that mean that I should be tossed aside yet AGAIN? I am sad, lost, and tired of trying to be strong.

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3 thoughts on “I’m never enough

  1. EricaSwagger says:

    [If you aren’t already, you should see a therapist and discuss these things with someone who can help weed through what could be causing these feelings. I’m not a professional, but my first reaction to this blurb is that you put a lot of value in how the men in your life treat you. You only mentioned father figures and romantic relationships. Do you have girlfriends, a mother, a stepmother, a sister? How are your relationships with those people? Do they make you feel appreciated and loved?

    My advice to anyone would be to move on from any relationship where you feel unhappy, unfulfilled, and/or unappreciated. But first, maybe it would do some good to communicate to your partner(s) about how you’re feeling and see if anything changes. If you feel shut out, first address those feelings with him and suggest things you can both do that could help. Be open to him expressing some unhappiness as well, and open to his own suggestions for change. If, in a few weeks or a couple months nothing changes and you aren’t feeling any better, move on. In the meantime though, I do strongly recommend talking to a therapist.

  2. Dennis Hong says:

    [Oh, wow. I’m so sorry that things are this rough for you. Unfortunately, I don’t think this is something anyone on the internet will be able to help you with. Have you thought about seeking counseling? Given what you’ve described, I feel like this might be your best option at this point….

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