So, I first met this girl like 2 years ago. We had a lot of friends in common and we engaged in small talks when we hanged out all together, but we only started talking seriously like 3 months ago.
We found that we had really good chemistry, and for like 2 months we talked every day up to very late in the night. I visited her home weekly (invited by herself) and we went to a lot of places together. She came to my place and spent countless hours hearing me play the guitar or reading with me.
I’m a very shy guy, and I don’t have a lot of friends (quite the opposite). I was diagnosed with depression five months ago, after I broke up a very unhealthy relationship and my grandpa (the only member of my family I really cared about) died. She was trying to make me open myself a little more, and I felt I was getting better.
I thought of her as just a really good friend, until the day when I went to her house and saw her ex-boyfriend was there too. I got really jealous and left with an stupid excuse. I was really confused because I discovered that she was more than a friend to me.
Since that day, she suddenly stopped talking to me. She don’t approach me to talk anymore, and don’t ask me to go anywhere. I tried doing it myself, and I got rejections and short messages. Now I’m feeling depressed all over again, because I had something really nice and now I don’t. I don’t talk to anyone besides my co-workers. I just play the guitar all day long (hey, at least I’m getting really good!).
I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what were her feelings about me, I was afraid to ask for fear of ruining the friendship. She often demonstrated her affection with hugs, taking my hand while we walked, etc. but she never did anything “really” romantic, like kissing me.
My head is a big mess right now. I miss her dearly, but I have no clue on how to proceed.
Sorry about my English btw, I’m still working on it. I very much welcome any corrections! Sorry about the messy redaction as well, I’m really making an effort opening up to strangers and I just wrote it as it came from my mind.
Btw, I’m 20 years old and she is 19. It’s been nearly a month since we last talked. I was undergoing psychological treatment, but I dropped it two weeks ago because I felt it wasn’t helping.