“I hate my dad and I never loved him”

I live with my mom and dad . These days I’m feeling a little distanced with my family especially with my dad. My dad drinks daily, he comes home after work, locks himself in his room and starts drinking for no reason. My mom never took a stand and stopped him. She has always cared about what other people will think about our family.

I hate my dad and I never loved him. I’m so frustrated living with them. I feel helpless and somewhere I’m afraid to stop such behavior of my dad because he starts abusing my mother and me when anyone says anything against him. I really don’t know what to do.