“I can’t choose between the two people I love”

Since I was about 14, I met this guy at a party my friend threw. We clicked immediately, started talking and dating right away. It was innocent and harmless since we were so young. For the next 4 years we still managed to keep contact and be together even though we never formally “dated,” but we still consider each other our first girlfriend and boyfriend.

He got sent away to a boarding school last year and I was traumatized losing him from my life, I thought he’d always be there for when I was ready to be really serious with him, as during those 4 years he never really moved on or had eyes for anyone else. I saw other people but it lasted a quick month because I never found that “click” again. Continue reading