Tag: childhood

“I got drunk and got too close to my co-worker”

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I was dating a co-worker for a week. I went to a party, drank way more than I ever do, and somehow ended up at his house. I met up with him after, thinking maybe we can finally kiss… and we did…BUT it went further. I know we didn’t have sex, I know I kept my clothes on, but I’ve got memories of things I would have never soberly said yes to at this point in our dating.

I tried to mentally regain myself, act like it was okay, kiss him, relax, but (I know I shouldn’t have) I drunkenly drove home. I was sick to my stomach and needed out of there. To make matters worse, I have a history of being sexually abused as a child and it seems as though this night has triggered a lot of things I thought I had dealt with.
Avoidance isn’t going to work, any other advice? Please help!

“I’m still uncomfortable about something that happened to me when I was five years old”

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When I was young boy (around 5) a girl a year older made me kiss her on the ass. I was really uncomfortable with it, but she said I had to and so I did. I don’t think it would have been such a big deal to me, but shortly after she told everyone that I had done it against her will. I thought I was going to go to jail or be arrested or something, but obviously nobody believed her.

I felt really guilty and bad about it for many years, but eventually managed to forget about it entirely after my family moved to another city. Now I’m 17 years old, and recently met up with other people that were in my class, and all of this was stirred up. Even though it seems like a childish thing now, I still feel all mixed up about it. For some reason I have never felt comfortable enough to tell anybody about it. I don’t know if I should contact the person and talk about it, talk with friends about it, keep trying to convince myself that it wasn’t a big deal, or just ignore it. I’m not sure if that is some kind of unintentional child-child abuse, or what to do to about these persistent feelings. I suppose any ol’ input or advice would be appreciated.