I have known this girl since we were both 12, and we’ve been together for almost 7 years now (we’re both 25). We have kind of reached that point when it’s getting strange that we are not married, or at the very least engaged. She has hinted numerous times that she wants to get married (and so have my parents and her parents, to some degree). But the idea of marriage and kids gives me full-on panic.It makes a lot of sense for us to get married. I make her happy and she allows me to be myself: happy and safe. She would also make an amazing mother (I can’t think of a better and more sensible and smart person). But for whatever reason I’m hesitant.
I’ve really only had one serious relationship, and it’s this one. She is also the only person I’ve had sex with. Lately I’ve begun to look at other women, kind of envisioning a different path. I’ve had a major crush on a girl I met a couple of months back (but I haven’t done anything about it, I don’t want to cheat on my girlfriend).
The thing I’m trying to figure out is: Am I really still in love, or am I just in this relationship because I don’t want to hurt my gf? Or is it a “the grass is always greener” situation? I would appreciate any advice you could give me.