“I think I’m in love with my best friend”

I’m a 15 y/o girl and I’ve liked my best friend, a 13 y/o girl, ever since I met her. I think I might be in love with her? I met her when I was 7, she was 5. I don’t think I realized how I felt about her until I was about 12. At first I thought I just liked her as a close friend or little sister. But I think I love her.

I haven’t confessed to her, but I have told her that I’m bisexual, although I’ve never had any romantic feelings towards anyone but her. When I was 12 and she was 10 we had a sleepover at her house, that’s when I realized how I feel. I find myself staring at her a lot. I also tend to go on her social media profiles quite a few times a day. I get jealous whenever I see anyone do or say anything to her that I feel could be flirtatious. She broke up with her boyfriend about 2 weeks ago and I didn’t know about it until she told me, because she doesn’t really post about her relationships online. She said “I broke up with him.” But it kind of seemed like she said it in a suggesting way?? I’m not sure. I couldn’t help but feel really happy when I found out. So, I offered taking her somewhere special in the fall and she agreed. She actually seems really excited about it. Should I confess to her??? I’m not sure. I don’t want to ruin our friendship. I’ve thought about confessing to her so many times and I’ve thought of a million scenarios but I don’t know if I can do it or if I should.

We had a sleep over at my house a while ago and she started randomly tickling me and so I was tickling her back and she’s really ticklish. And then she said “You like this, don’t you?” Now what did she mean by that??!? I don’t know and I’m kind of confused about it. I don’t know if she meant it romantically or sexually or just as friends, I have no idea. But after she said that she went to the bathroom and I decided I didn’t want to screw anything up, so when she came back I told her we should sleep.

Whenever she compliments me I get a lot happier than when other people compliment me. Now that I think about it, maybe I have that sexuality where you only like one person? I forget what it’s called. Anyway, sorry if you think this is gross, I just need advice whether I should confess to her. I’m not sure if I want to date her, but I know I do want something more than a friendship. Maybe a secret relationship? I think that would be nice, and probably best for both of us. Anyway please give your thoughts, opinions, and advice. Thank you.

Advertisements

What do you think?

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s