“He’s always on my mind but I don’t want to be heartbroken”

This is going to start off cheesy but please keep reading cuz I don’t know what to do… So I’ve never had a boyfriend before but I have been asked out many times. Here’s the thing though, I always decline. Even if it is someone I like. I think it might be because there are only two options for how a relationship will end up, it will either end in heartbreak or you will grow up and eventually get married and have kids together.

]But usually, at my age (14) the relationship will end with the first option, heartbreak. I’m scared that if I end up in a relationship with someone I really like, that it will not last and that I will have my heart broken. Heartbreak is probably one of my greatest fears.

Now, I have this crush on a boy who has been one of my best friends since we were 9. And I’m pretty sure he likes me too but he moved two years ago and lives about an hour away from where I am. I really like him and he’s always on my mind but I feel like if we end up together it won’t last because we live so far apart. And now I’m scared again because I don’t want to feel the pain that so many people have felt. I don’t want to be heartbroken. Can someone please help me or give me some kind of advice on what to do with this situation?

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2 thoughts on ““He’s always on my mind but I don’t want to be heartbroken”

  1. anon says:

    Most of my relationships have been about three or four years in length. They’ve made me happy and left me better each time, even though I’ve never been married nor had kids. I’ve been in long-distance relationships, and they broke my heart when they ended. I felt like I wanted to die sometimes… but my heart healed stronger, and I’ll never forget the people I loved. I don’t let everyone into my heart, but the times when I protected it too much made it brittle and empty.

    You don’t know what next year will be like. You hella don’t know what things will be like in five years. Why are you so worried about ten, or twenty?

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