We need different things, and I know that now, but it didn’t stop me falling head over heels for him and integrating him into my friend group. I love him, but this relationship is heading nowhere good.
We’re both in college, and that’s where we met, but we are on totally different planes academically. He failed all but one of his classes last semester while I’m trying to stay above a 3.5 for my Honors Academy standing. It makes sharing my successes with him very hard because he’s trailing so far behind me when he should be in the same classes as me. Then there’s the biggest problem I have. His life is imploding. I swear the week I decided to break up with him, everything decided to go wrong. His father had a heart attack, his mom has a possibly cancerous tumor, he failed his calc test for the second time, he’s leaving his fraternity, and now his grandfather collapsed and is most likely not going to recover. He has a history of self harm and I’m afraid if I leave he’ll lose all progress he’s made. I know that it shouldn’t be the reason I stay with him, but as I’ve said before, I still love him.
We also have the same friend group. A Venn diagram of his friends and my friends is a circle. And with the way his life is going, there’s no way I’m not the bad guy if I break it off. I really need someone to talk to but there isn’t anyone.
How do I do this? The more time I spend with him the more I want to stay with him. I just don’t know what to do.