I cheated on my boyfriend who I’ve been with for five years with one of his friends.
His friend told me months ago he wishes he met me first and how much he liked me. I have slowly been developing feelings for him too, and we ended up having sex. We both instantly felt like garbage afterwards, and we both agreed not to say anything to anyone.
Me and the boyfriend have been doing ok – we live together and I feel we’ve gotten too comfortable with each other. I don’t feel attracted to him as much as I did. I do a lot around the house and pay most of the bills – I sometimes feel like I “take care” of him a lot (he is a couple years younger).
The guilt is getting to me, and I’m at a loss for what to do. In one way, I want to break up and be alone for a while, then see what happens with me and his friend down the road.
I’m also afraid that I might be giving up something good and I might regret it down the road, but then I think it may be the best.