I have met my girl friend two years ago through a friend and at the time I met her she had a break up with her ex. she was upset and complaining to my friend about it. Seems she wasn’t stable and drank a lot to overcome the situation. I met her for two consecutive days at my friend’s and the last day she asked for my number and told me that she likes me. We started speaking on the phone and she mentioned that she loved her ex but he broke up with her many times and she will not give him the chance to do this again. I was attracted to her and liked the idea of speaking to her. it didnt take us long at all we started going out and we had fun. Then out of nothing on our second or third date she asked to kiss me, at first I didnt want to give attention to that ( I said to myself she is not emotionally stable right now and we used to drink so she might be a little drunk) but the next time she kept insisting. She left me with no choice but to do what she was asking for. We both had this thing grow between us and we spent some really good time. To be honest I was enjoying the fact we are having fun and no strings attached thing especially I am a person who somehow fears comittment and I am very moody. Days go by and then she starts complaining that she is not happy that all this is happening and she has no definition to our situation. I didnt want to end this up so I asked her to be my girl. Things went good for quite a while then she started complaining about my ways of treating her ( i didnt give much attention..etc) and that I didnt want this for the beginning and that she forced me. I broke up with her. After a couple of months I thought I was mistaken and I shouldn’t have let her go and I asked her to make up things and she didnt mind and since then we always had the same problems going on and off (whenever I let her go, I feel I want her back). My problem is i am confused sometimes I keep thinking maybe I shouldn’t have gone that far from the beginning and I am not sure if she is the right person for me or the person to marry. And sometimes I think the oppossite. I feel she loves me and she is trying to be understanding, especially lately I have all this confusion going on my mind and of course she noticed something like that through my flat way of treating her. We even spoke about it but every time I keep finding excuses. I am not sure I want to leave her and I am not sure I want to stay either. She keeps accusing me that i dont love her and i keep defending that but to be honest i dont know. Iam confused to that degree. Finally, she asked me to make up my mind about what I want to do and she will accept whatever I choose. I don’t want to hurt her and not sure why I have all these mixed feelings. Do I not love her and she is not the one? Or is it the fears inside me speaking?