So I’ve been with this girl for 2 years now and for most of it things were great, I remember quite early on we decided on getting a house together and after our first year of university that’s what happened. It’s not like we argue or anything either, nothing is actually ‘wrong’ with our relationship but I had a sudden moment of realisation when my parents stopped me one day and asked if I was actually happy and I had a bit of a think and said no, I considered that I only said that because it seemed to be what they expected, but after a drunken cry and good hard look at myself it seemed pretty true.
Nearly all my conversations involve me complaining about my ‘just fine’ relationship. We don’t sleep in the same bed anymore either as she has a terrible snoring problem and while I know of several things to try and fix that I just don’t want to, possibly because she put on a fair bit of weight over the last year and while I feel pretty shallow saying it, I’m less attracted to her. The real kicker for me is that while I’m moaning away and thinking of how different things could be, I still care for her, We still cuddle up on the sofa and have silly couple-y things we do together, sometimes it feels like going through the motions but generally feels like auto pilot when it happens.
I think that’s probably enough, it already looks like I know what I want to do but I can’t bring myself to REALLY face it.
So uh.. any opinions on this?