I have been with my husband for quite sometime now but have been very confused. After over 5 years, I am finally coming to the conclusion that I am in an abusive marriage. I have a child with him on the way and am upset that my mixed feelings are even stronger than they were before. It gets to the point where I go to sleep crying. He yells at me, criticizes me and “talking” does not exist. Our discussions turn into yelling. I get told that I am a sucky person and he hates being around me….Everything that you can think of, I have been told or called that. Sometimes it has gotten to the point of him shoving me, pushing me, choking me or pinning me down. I have called the police before but am always too scared to tell the truth. I’m so confused. I make myself think his anger is okay and that he will change eventually. I can’t talk to him about my feelings, my confidence is non existent. I miss when he used to treat me like a queen. Now it’s just me making the effort to make him happy. I don’t even know how to begin to leave or make him understand. If I told him I wanted a separation or divorce, it would only turn ugly.