I got matched with this guy on Tinder. We talked for a couple of days and decided to meet up. The first planned meeting didn’t happen because he was too tired from work. Yup, he is flaky! But it eventually happened a few days later, when he had his off day from work. It was plain getting to know each other through a meal and a couple of drinks. He walked me to the bus station, I went home and that was it. Nothing physical. Didn’t realise the purpose of Tinder changed!
We texted almost daily after that. I invited him over to mine for our second meeting. We had sex. And a couple of times more across a few weeks. Then, it turned out weird. We started going on romantic dates. We walked the park. We explored some new places. We watched movies. We met up for dinners. Sometimes with sex after, sometimes without. It got really confusing. We would cuddle all night and have breakfast together. It wasn’t just about sex anymore.
From the beginning, we assured each other that we don’t want anything serious, especially since I am leaving the country in a year time. But, eventually, I got attached and I confronted him. He then said he doesn’t want to take things further and would only like to meet sometimes and sleep together.
I was really confused. Why the proper dates. Why the texts. Why the all-night-long cuddles. I was so distracted from whatever I was doing. I was waiting for his text. I was looking forward to the next meet up. I was thinking of what breakfast to make for the morning afters. Yes, that’s how bad it got. Who wouldn’t get attached by going on romantic dates. We even held hands and made out in public.
I could no longer take it. Too much of a distraction. I texted and ended it. I supposed he was fine with it? He only said he understood and hoped he didn’t hurt me. Obviously I acted like I didn’t care and was determined to end it completely once and for all, but it hurt so bad inside.
I am wondering if I should text him again? I miss the companionship a lot. With the ‘break up” text I’ve sent him, it would be so awkward if I were to contact him again. It was me who suggested a complete cutoff between us, but I am not sure if I should go back to when we enjoy each other’s company without the relationship status, which we don’t want, with all the distractions and emotions involved. I doubt we could even go back to square one since I’ve already made it this way. So, the question is whether or not I text him? For the sake of companionship really. He is never the type of guy I like and there is definitely no ‘future’ for us.