I just feel so alone lately. I’ve had issues with depression and anxiety the majority of my life, and I’m sure that plays a factor in the way I’m feeling, but I kind of have just lost hope in people. I don’t feel close to my friends anymore and anytime I have tried to reach out I haven’t really gotten a response.
I so desperately want to just go somewhere new and start over, but I can’t. I mean, I’m a senior in high school, so I guess next year I will for college, but I have a while to get through before that. I don’t live in a very big town, it’s not easy for me to just go out and make new friends. I feel like lately my anxiety has gotten bad enough that it’s hard to talk around even my close friends. I hate everything I say and feel stupid for saying anything. I’m not close with my family either, I have a really bad relationship with my mom and am not close with my siblings. I just don’t want to do this, or be this way. I don’t think anyone cares about me.